I am scared.
I haven't felt this scared in a really long time.
Have you ever stood on the edge of a cliff? A high cliff, with wind rushing past you and waves crashing beneath you. Wasn't there part of you that wanted to jump? A curiosity of how it would feel, a sudden realisation of how easy it would be to end your own life.
This is how I feel. Only the curiosity is now an overwhelming desire, and I am nowhere near the cliff.
This morning I didn't want to get out of bed. Not through laziness. Not through sadness. Just through the fear of not knowing what I would do if I did.
It sounds melodramatic but I genuinely am scared of myself.
Girl.x
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